The girl was about to be torn away from all of her family and friends, and her beautiful city. She was moving to Sugar Land, Texas with her parents, brother, and sister. It seemed as though her world was falling apart.
On July 5, 2012, the girl said her goodbyes to NYC and all of the people in it, hopped on a plane with her little sister, and flew to the far away land of Texas.
The first 2 months were the hardest for the girl. This place called Texas was like an entirely different world from what she had know back home. There were no buses to chase, no subways to ride, and nothing was of walking distance. Not only that, but she had no friends in this new home. The girl spent her first 2 months here crying herself to sleep. If only she knew how her life was about to change..
Before moving, the girl was quite close minded and would never stand up for herself or voice her opinion. All she wanted to do was blend in and follow the crowd. If she thought something was cool, but her friends did not, she would change her opinion to match theirs. The girl started to become miserable. She started fighting with her family all of the time and started doing terrible in school. But she was only doing it to herself. The girl had the power to change her life; she just didn't know it yet.
But after about 6 months of living in her new home of Sugar Land and being away from her old, toxic life, the girl started to realize how much of life she was missing out on. Since being away from all of her friends and family back home, she started to become very independent. She was learning that she did not need to follow a crowd, or change her opinions so that others would agree. She was becoming herself; who she was meant to be.
Dreams were being shattered, while new dreams were forming. The girl was making a life for herself all on her own. One day, she decided to make her new dream of traveling the world a reality. Since opening herself up to a brilliant, new way of looking at life, the girl didn't want to waste on more second of her life not striving to be the happiest version of herself possible. And she knew that to be her happiest self, she had to follow her heart, and her dream. She was going to travel the world. Alone.
So, she told her family of her plan to quit her job and travel the world on her own. At first, they were not very comfortable with the girl traveling on her own. But the girl knew that she could handle this on her own. She wanted to do this on her own.
So, she started her journey of planning a year to herself. During her planning, she looked back on her New York self and realized that if she would have never left, she would not be chasing her dream and following her heart around the world. The girl probably would have stayed in New York for the rest of her life. She would have went to college (something that she realized she didn't have to do, so she never went), got a job, maybe would have got married, had kids, and played the game of life. If it wasn't for moving to Texas, her heart and mind would have never opened up. She would possibly still be that same girl she once was. Who knows where her life would have led her. All the girl knew at that moment was that she would not be as happy as she was now. Even though she had to leave her family and friends, she was still happy. At the time, that was exactly what the girl needed. She needed to be independent. On her own. Happier.
And so, while the girl still misses her family and friends, she could not be happier that she had no choice but to leave her home. If there is one lesson that the girl took away from the past 3 years of her life, it's this: sometimes the worst of situations seem like an absolute nightmare, but turn out to be the best thing to ever happen to you. Always have an open heart and mind. Never doubt yourself. You write your own story. Go live your adventure.
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"Look how far I have come without anyone holding my hand ... There's still so much to learn, so many dreams to earn, but even if I crash and burn ten times a day I think I'm here to stay, I'm gonna find my way"
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